Yes, I talk about boobs a lot. When you don't have them, you want them and you look at other women's boobs in hopes that your's will grow into "those ones" overnight. It's crazy that I, before becoming pregnant, didn't even fill an A. No, that's not crazy. It's sad. The crazy part is that my sister is like a double D. I like to think she stole my boob allowance from me.
In thinking of the pros and cons of weaning Cohen, I hate to admit that I've been very concerned about losing my B boobs. It's not my number one concern, but it's in the top 3. Cohen's nutritional intake and our bonding take number 1 and 2 on the list, but losing my boos is definitely #3. When you don't have boobs and you suddenly have them, even if they aren't big jugs, you realize how much you feel like a woman for the first time in your life and it's not that easy to let them go. I wonder if other women think that too--you just don't feel like a woman until you have boobs. It's so sad but it's true for me.
Anyway, I've come up with my list of pros and cons for weaning Cohen to formula and in true Kristyn fashion, I'd decided to share it with anyone who cares to read this collection of my thoughts.
THINGS I'LL MISS
1. Knowing that Cohen is getting the "perfect" food from me. Yes formula has made many advancements over the last few decades since it's creation, so that's reassuring, but it's still not breastmilk.
2. Spending quality time with that little hooligan. I love how he looks me in the eyes when he's nursing and smiles when I smile at him. And his hands are always in search of new discoveries. But it's that bond that he has only with me that I worry will lose a little something when we quit our little routine.
3. Boobs. I'm thinking of investing in some Nearly Me silicone thing-a-magiggers that you put in your bra so there's actually something there. I won't tell if I get them or not. You'll have to guess.
4. Convenience. Nursing is usually convenient. And it's free. I'm not looking forward to the expense of formula.
5. Aunt Flo. I'm REALLY not looking forward to getting my period all the time. Before getting pregnant with Cohen, I had never missed a monthly visit since I got it at age 13. The 12 month break I've had has been wonderful. Now I have to start carrying tampons with me at all times since I don't know when it's going to come. Blerg. And it's not just that, it's the emotional rollercoaster that comes along with it. I already feel like I'm on one every day right now. I feel like I'll be living on a Tilt-a-Whirl when it comes.
THINGS I WON'T MISS (don't judge me)
1. National Geographic nipples. Yes, you read that right. When you have a baby with acid reflux, they eat differently than "normal" babies. They pull off every few seconds and then lunge back on and then pull off, taking your nipple with them every time. I swear mine are 5" long now. I have to roll them up and tuck them in when I clip my bra back on.
2. Fussy McFusserson. He's so fussy and spastic when he nurses. Nursing for us has not been an enjoyable experience because of his acid reflux. But with the bottle, his fussiness is pretty much non-existent. And he doesn't pull off all the time with a bottle like he does with me.
3. Being tied to the boy. Now that he's taking a bottle, I have a little more freedom than I did even 2 weeks ago. I don't have this short span of time in which to run my errands which means I can leave the house for longer than 45 minutes at a time.
4. Getting up in the night to feed HRH. When I start working, Christian and I are going to take turns getting up in the night to feed him. It's so nice to think that I don't have to do it every night and still try to function all day in the office.
5. Wondering if he's getting enough. Now we know what we're giving him at all times and are figuring out that his fussiness after he's been awake for an hour or so isn't from hunger--it's usually from being tired and needing a nap.
So there you have it. I might add to it as I think more about it but this is what I've come up with over the last week or so. If you have any pros or cons you'd like to share, write a comment.
And now a photo of Boy Wonder who honestly gets cuter and cuter each day and makes my heart absolutely full when I look at him.
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