Dear Cohen

Well my boy, we've had a rough couple of days, you and I. The good news is today is a new day and things are looking good here at Team Hancock. The snow has finally stopped falling and it's sunny out and we're both feeling a lot better than yesterday.

The last few days have seen a lot of tears between the two of us. Tears of frustration and pain for both of us. You've been frustrated because you're not getting enough to eat and then you're in pain from the hunger. You're still set in your ways and won't take a bottle no matter how hungry you are, but your dad and I are not going to give up trying.

Last night saw tears of a different kind from me. The tears I love. Tears that won't stop flowing when I think about how much I love you. We were having a chat on the couch and you were trying so hard to roll your tongue that I just started crying from how much joy and happiness you bring me. Such different tears than what had been flowing earlier in the day.  

There have been so many firsts lately that I wanted to record so I wouldn't forget them.

First, you've been laughing since you were 9 weeks old. Your dad and I catch you laughing to yourself all the time now. It's so easy to get you to laugh. Yesterday all I had to do was make a hissing sound like a snake and tickle you and I thought you would explode from delight. Your laugh is the best sound I've ever heard...well, it's tied for first place with your first cry. We've made lots of videos of you laughing so we'll never forget your first laughter.

You've also been rolling your tongue and blowing a lot of bubbles. My goodness, you are so proud of yourself when you do it.

When Daddy and I stick our tongue out at you, you return the favour with sticking your tongue right back at us.

You're discovering your hands more and more each day. When you are eating, your hands are constantly discovering new textures. They are constantly grabbing at my sweater, touching your face, touching my chest, pulling on my shirt, never stopping. And then when you're not eating, those hands are in your mouth.

While there will be more days of good and bad tears ahead of us, you are still, and always will be, my favourite thing in the entire world and I can't wait to see what the next few weeks and months will bring.

Love,

Your biggest fan, Mommy

xoxo

Our little Centerfold. Better not let your girlfriends see this one!

Waiting patiently with Daddy for the snow to stop falling.

Little Houdini after he broke free from a super tight swaddle.

MUST. EAT. HANDS!!!

Cracking jokes with Daddy.